User blog:Lord of the STARS/The system that has failed.

Yet again I fail to keep from losing with out godmoding, it is very hard not to, this blog that is actually for once being used as a blog is to explain exactly why I godmode, how I feel about godmoding, and how hard I'm actually trying not to godmod.

First, why I do it.

1: Actually a lot of the battles I fought I lost, and I just don't like losing. So I try to learn from my failures and adapt to not lose again, but it goes horribly wrong.

2: Population. I try to keep track of the population of my npc's, but lets face it, I can't. The number I intend to keep is enough to crew a space ship, maintain that ship, and have enough troops on that ship either for boarding or in atmosphere combat. And yes I try to keep a strong fleet. 75 ships is over kill??? I honestly thought that the chat had hundreds of thousands of ships and 1 small fleet was often 180 ships with a flying city as a flag ship. No seriously, I actually thought they where that strong and I just wanted to be able to keep up.

3: rp's going to slow. Recently I tried to godmod again, but that time it was because I waited so long for the fighting part of the rp and I was starting to get desperate to keep the rp from lasting a whole year! Remember how long it takes us in the nb4 game to, um, not get to z? I was worried we planed to do that in the rp that day.

4: quest for galactic domination: Actually never mind that one, I counted my chances of actually accomplishing that one, and chickened out. But yes, I actually had hoped to conquer stuff, but dmr is letting me star in a rp where I do get to conquer something, I should have a fire song and dance to saloot him for that.

5: I know field marshall, the asteroid fortress is godmoding. I don't even run the fort well anyway, its over run with mutated weeds and the only herbivores that can stop the plants are extinced, but lets face it, I did that for the children. I wanted to keep them safe. And a war ship is no safe place for nesting. Think of it like those 80 hour movys with dino raptors who have 1 place they guard the nest, and 1 place they venture out to hunt. They never take their children to the hunting field when they belong in the nest. Its just not safe. The asteroid fort is the concept of the nesting field and the war ship maps are the hunting fields. Because that's what Kig-yar do.

6: why I have children in the games: Lets face it, I am surprised I am not yet dead, the children are to inherit my roll in the game when I do die. Their sean is coming soon, but main difference is that their personality is still in development, so they can be roll played by "you" also. Yes that's right, if I die they will take my place, I actually think I can die in the rp. Dose that make me a coward?

how I feel about godmoding:

1: Weal, honestly, its embarrassing, it is, its embarrassing, it makes me look like a terrible actor in non comedy rp's, like I can't keep track of my own stuff, I just hate that I have to result to it.

2: My main character has well taken in the old Japanese proverb taught to the old silent assassin warriors mercenaries, and shadow warriors of old. "A fair fight, is only a fight that you might lose". In other words Lord of the Stars fights dirty, and cheats. I try to play that roll, but by accident only end up cheating in real life instead of in game play cheats.

3: Population is indeed a problem, I just need a better system keeping track of it then only using - when some one dies and + before eggs even hatch and when I hire or inspire new Kig-yar to join. This system just dose not work, and I need a better one.

and how hard I'm actually trying not to godmod.

I will edit this section latter, I get frustrated even thinking about it because I just can't seem to actually succeed in any of my attempts.

Please share thoughts, you can even insult me on this, just keep your insults eloquent.